New calling

At the beginning of March the Bishop asked me to come into his office and asked me to serve as the Primary President. I knew all of the Presidencies in the ward would be changing, but I didn't expect this calling. I know most people would be completely overwhelmed and think what a hard calling and how much work and stress it would be, but I didn't feel like that.

6 months ago I would have felt those same feelings, but because since November I have been serving as Primary Chorister this calling was actually a relief. I know, that is sad, but I had such a hard time as chorister. I didn't mind planning the songs and activities, because I love primary songs and games and I know the songs are true, but I stressed every week about standing in front of people singing. I am not a singer and I don't sing loud. It was a constant worry for me to choose a song that the kids didn't know and that I would be singing a solo, or that I would have to teach them a new song and I would have to sing it for them to teach it to them. I was usually fine once I was standing up and doing it, but the same anxiety came back every week when I was preparing. I am grateful I had that calling, and looking back it was fun and I do feel more comfortable singing with the kids and in front of them now than I did before, but I was excited for the change.

Unfortunately I was only going to be at church for 1 week, gone for a week, back for 1 week, then gone for 4 weeks! Luckily, the presidency before us had things under control and my counselors and secretary are awesome! They handled things perfectly while I was gone. I felt so bad to abandon them, but they were great! Now that I am back from all my travels I finally feel like I can give this calling my all. I have always loved kids and now I have a whole primary to love. I am still learning some of their names, but on Sundays when I am sitting up front looking at all of them I have a tiny glimpse of what our Father in Heaven feels for us. I don't know these children as our Father knows us, but I still love them. I want them to be happy. I want them to have strong testimonies. I want them to know they are children of a loving Heavenly Father. I want them to know how important temples are and to have a strong desire to get married there someday and an even stronger desire to continue in faith their whole lives. I want them to feel the spirit on Sundays and know that the things they are taught in church are the true way to happiness.

There are 58 children in our primary and 45 of them come regularly. It is a very musical primary though, because it for the most part a military ward. From March through June they will be reorganizing the Primary, the Young Women's, Relief Society and the Young Mens Presidencies. There are so many families moving. We are loosing so many of our senior primary children. We are also loosing teachers. So in the next few weeks we will probably be completely redoing teachers, classes and primary in general. After everyone leaves we will have 1 class that will only have 1 person in it. I think we will be combining different classes and possibly making a junior and senior primary. It will be interesting. Hopefully we can get it all organized soon so things can be stable again for this kids. It is so hard for them to be reverent when things are constantly changing. I just hope we can make changes according to the spirit and that it will all work out the way it is supposed to.